i don't have any illusions anymore.

sunday the sixth of may.

i woke up pretty early which was really annoying. some people need to shh. i couldn’t get back to sleep so woke up oscar and we watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. 

we got ready then walked to mcdonalds for lunch. we witnessed someone with pretty disgusting make-up and someone else that was determined to speak to everyone. leave us be, we’re eating. after lunch we wandered around the boring shops. oscar and i tried on lots of amusing hiking gear. gorgeous. we walked back to mine and wasted time for a while.

oscar was going to go home but we decided that ordering a MASSIVE pizza was a much better idea. we sat outside and waited for the pizza and watched the same wee car drive round the block for over half an hour. give up and try and find a space somewhere else mate.

we started watching bridget jones’s diary but we fell asleep fairly quickly.

saturday the fifth of may.

i got up just after twelve and got ready. oscar and i caught the train into town and bought some food from tesco then went up to my studio. after lunch we went along to the library and i photocopied loads of nonsense and read some pretty awful dissertations. 

i managed to drop my folder with all my work in and it went all over the library floor. nobody bothered to help me. cheers guys.

i went back along to my studio and sorted through all the research and highlighted fancy words and made cute little notes. 

i went back to oscar’s and he picked up some things then we went to sainsburys to buy dinner. we caught the train back to mine. the kitchen was all yucky so we couldn’t cook. 

i sat on facebook and chatted to brogan for a bit and we came to the conclusion that it’s for the best that she makes all my decisions from now on.

oscar made me dinner and i printed out some work then we walked along to the rock and met brogan and mairi for a ‘double date’. it was karaoke night so oscar and i took full advantage of this. we sang “when you say nothing at all.” one mental guy even started waving his lighter around. we were clearly fabulous…

we walked back home and lay in bed and chatted for ages about what we wanted to do with our lives. thrilling. 

friday the fourth of may.

may the fourth be with you!

i got hardly any sleep because i was worrying about so many things. oscar woke me up at eleven when he was leaving. i got up and got ready and printed out some work. 

i got the train at 12:11 and i met brogan on the train. i went up to school and sat in the corridor waiting for the printing sheet to go up. despite the fact that i was the second person there and had waited 40 minutes, loads of fourth years still thought they had the right to go in front of me. not impressed. my lack of confrontational skills meant that i did absolutely nothing. i’m useless.

i went up to my studio and organised my work then went along to the library and printed out lots more research then spent the rest of the day highlighting things. i was pretty insane by the end of it. 

oscar and i went to the vic for dinner and a drink then we went to charing cross. we JUST missed a train and had to wait over half an hour for another one which was super boring. 

(oscar will not be happy that i’ve put this up. oh well.)

we finally got back to mine and we spent the night lying on my bed singing along to horrendous music. 

thursday the third of may.

today was a horrible mess of a day. everything was yucky and blurry.

sometimes i really wish i had all the fancy pretentious words. i wish i could stand up for myself and not let people walk all over me just because they can. i also really need to stop taking out my problems on the people i love. 

wednesday the second of may.

i caught the train into town with oscar just after one and i went to the studio to work. i was extremely fickle today and could not make up my mind about whether to go to the cinema or not. after several confusing texts i finally decided to go to the cinema. i met darren at cineworld just after four and we got our tickets. we met up with sean then went to see avengers. i thought it was pretty awesome and definitely want to go and see it again. 

we walked along sauchiehall street and were going to go for drinks but darren said he was skint and i then found out i had £2.19 in my account so we decided it was best just to go home. 

i met up with oscar and he bought me food and we went back to mine. we went to bed just after one.

tuesday the first of may.

oscar woke up at ten to nine and left. i went back to sleep for a bit then got up just before ten.

i got ready and caught the train into town. i went for my meeting with my counsellor. it went really well and it was nice to chat to her again; she’d cancelled our second meeting and i’d missed the third one. it’s weird that someone can figure out so many things from the little things i say and suddenly so much stuff makes sense. 

i went back along to the studio and worked for the rest of the day. oscar and i got pizza and chips for tea then caught the train back to mine. we watched peep show for a bit then went to sleep.

monday the thirtieth of april.

i woke up just after eight. i got ready super quickly and left oscar’s and walked into town. i went to w h smith to get paper then walked up to school. i dropped my stuff off at the studio then went along to the printing room and started going through all the nonsense i needed to get printed for my assessment. the printer was not my friend today. once i’d printed everything i went for lunch with brogan and oscar.

oscar and i went to starbucks after lunch then walked to central to get a train to my brother’s. i painted my nails on the train, apart from that the journey was fairly uneventful.

babysitting was pretty fun even though murray said that he preferred oscar to me. gutted. we had an egg and spoon race and watched cars. murray told me off for singing along. russell and viv got back and we all had dinner and chatted for a bit then oscar and i caught the train back to central. we walked along to the vic and had a few drinks and chatted with some of the fourth years. it’s nice to see that they have the same impressions of some people. lovely.

oscar and i caught the train back to mine.

we watched peep show for a bit then fell asleep.

sunday the twenty-ninth of april

i got up at two which was fairly tragic. i called my dad and sang happy birthday to him. he described it as an “interesting rendition.” thanks dad, thanks a bunch.

oscar and i had a cup of tea then he went home. i spent the rest of the day sitting in my jammies, editing photographs and watching juno and 10 things i hate about you. 

i managed to transfer all of my blog into a document and make it all neat and pretty then i started printing it out. it’s going to take me forever. 

i left the flat at eleven and caught the last train into town. oscar met me at charing cross and we walked back to his. we got food from sainsbury’s and for some unknown reason i decided to buy salted peanuts. i spent the rest of the night watching the apprentice and trying to stop myself spewing my guts out. i brought it all on myself. idiot.

saturday the twenty-eighth of april.

i woke up just after eleven and watched a couple of episodes of peep show in bed. i made breakfast then went back to bed for a bit. i got up again at half two.

i spent most of the day doing fairly mindless work. i hate it when it gets to the year and all the boring documentation you’ve missed out just gets in the way of anything exciting. i gave up at eleven then fell asleep after watching a few episodes of peep show.

friday the twenty-seventh of april.

i woke up just before eleven. i stayed in bed for a bit because i’m lazy. oscar and i got ready and caught the half twelve train into town. i got into school and joined the queue for the new sign up sheets. i booked some printing slots, handed in my lab fee receipt then went for some food.

i spent the rest of the day in the studio organising all my work. i made lots of pretty little labels and did some more work on my journal and sketchbooks. 

oscar and i left school at eight. we bumped into sean on sauchiehall street and he described how he fell asleep during the hunger games but woke up and was “right in the moment.” nice.

oscar and i bought beer and cake from tesco then i went home. i did the dishes, took the rubbish out and tidied my room.

kieran and gareth came round just after nine. oscar and ailsa turned up a bit later on. we all poured drink into each other’s mouths and we kissed the owl on the mantelpiece. delicious. 

after they left oscar and i watched shit tv then went to bed and fell asleep to peep show.

thursday the twenty-sixth of april.

i woke up at nine after having a pretty tragic dream. i was watching a film about the titanic then went into the film and was part of all the unexciting action. we had been lured into bad waters and the boat was going to sink and we were all going to die. i couldn’t find my mum on the boat and i got upset.

once that horrendous ordeal was over i dragged myself out of bed at 9:15. i was so tired and felt pretty rubbish. i got ready and watched an episode of peep show then caught the 10:01 train into town. i met oscar at starbucks. the woman in front of us refused to give her name so oscar decided that she was an fbi agent. seems likely.

i dropped my stuff off at the studio then went to pay my lab fees then spent the remainder of my money on ring binders for all the research i haven’t finished yet. i did some work in the studio then went along to the fourth year helper meeting even though i already knew i was helping jo. i used my wit and charm to get him the second year that he wanted. fabulous.

i did some more work in the studio then went for food and a couple of drinks with jo. i went back up to the studio and found out that i managed to get a job in summer which is nice. i went to an exhibition opening but didn’t really know anyone and felt a bit awkward so after a couple of mini discussions i retreated to my studio and did some more work.

i met up with oscar and we caught the train back to mine. we had dinner then went to bed.

wednesday the twenty-fifth of april.

we got up just after twelve and after throwing a little strop i got ready. we caught the train into town and went to the vic for lunch. kirstie joined us and we chatted about exhibitions and other things that i got confused about. 

we went up to the studio and i spent the day cutting up photographs and working on my sketchbook and journal from america. i wish i’d documented more stuff when i was across there because it’s such a nightmare trying to catch up on it all now when really i should be working on stuff for this term. oh well. 

i caught the train home at half eight and i had a nice phone call with my mum. dunfermline sounds as boring as ever. 

i got into the flat and made dinner and chatted to ailsa for a bit then got on with some work. i spent the rest of the night taking photographs of myself again because i’m madly in love with myself. i gave up at midnight and tidied up the mess i’d made in the living room. 

i had a wee skype date with oscar then i watched the apprentice and a few episodes of peep show. i went to sleep just after half three.

tuesday the twenty-fourth of april.

i woke up at five to eight and was wide awake but thought it was a good idea to go back to sleep until my alarm would go off at nine. clearly this was a dreadful idea as i slept through all my alarms and woke up just before eleven. not impressed. 

i sat in bed and sorted through all my photos from america. i needed to print out contact sheets of all my photographs but since i’d taken over 13,000 i was fairly convinced i’d break the printer. i managed to cut them down to just over a thousand. 

i got ready and caught the train into town. it was surprisingly warm and i was annoyed for bringing a jacket with me as i couldn’t be bothered carrying it around with me for the rest of the day. i met up with oscar and we went for lunch. in the short while that we were in the union, a monsoon had started outside. excellent. typical glasgow. 

i got totally drenched on the short walk from the vic to the studio. i went along to the printer and had to hang around for a while to get on it. i was early for my printing slot as usual but fourth years obviously take priority even when other people have booked in. hmm. i managed to get all my contact sheets printed. four and a half hours sitting printing out photos is not fun.

oscar and i went for a drink in the union to celebrate the fact that we’d printed out lots of photos. ha. i had a slightly awkward encounter with peter. oscar and i caught the train back to mine. we had nachos and garlic bread and watched the inbetweeners then went to sleep.

monday the twenty-third of april.

oscar and i spent the majority of the day doing very little. we did have some excellent discussions though. i rearranged the living room and set up my lights then took some amusing photos of oscar. oscar took some slightly less amusing photographs of me. we sat outside for a bit and we had a nice chat with elaine about windows then oscar went home.

i spent the rest of the night taking photographs of myself. i wanted to get 100 final images taken but it took me four hours to get 28 potential images. eurgh. i got into bed and called oscar on skype. we chatted about all the work we hadn’t managed to get done then i fell asleep whilst he was in the middle of talking to me.

sunday the twenty-second of april.

we woke up just after ten. i felt ridiculously ill. oscar went home and i spent the rest of the morning rolling about on the floor until i was sick then i felt loads better. i decided to celebrate by lying on the hall floor eating knock off after eights and chatting to ailsa about how shit people are, how little money we have and how we’re not going to get all our work done in time. i sorted through some sketchbook work and research then got ready.

i walked to tinderbox and met oscar for coffee. i was slightly annoyed with oscar because he kept attempting to quote some embarrassing things i’d said back in the day. we got bored of tinderbox so decided to go to starbucks. we witnessed a man who didn’t know how to hold a baby. sometimes i speak too loudly in public and i really humiliate myself.

once we were bored of starbucks as well we walked back to mine via 3 steps to heaven. ice cream is my friend. we got back to mine and i made food and we went to bed and watched peep show.